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Sometimes we make decisions in our lives that changes the way we see and react to things. Okay well, a lot of the time we do. Although, I have made various wrong decisions that led me down the wrong path...I have come to the realization that all things happen for a reason. Good or bad, they happen for a reason. For instance, just recently this past year or two, my father and I had a tension in our relationship. For my Dad, college, homeschooling his children, and a full time job got the best of him. I, being the eldest, took on a lot of the responsibility when my Mom went out to get a job. It was a lot to deal with, school, three siblings, and my parents built up stress which I let get the best of myself. Me being young and naive, didn't put my faith and trust in God at that time...and that's when things went downhill. I ended up leaving home, with nowhere to turn but my boyfriend's grandma's home. She took me in like one of her own grandchildren. I'll never forget how gracious and loving she was to me. I'm thankful that God brought her into my life. She taught me many things, that have impacted my life in such a good way. After a year of living with her, I was placed in a foster home in Russell, Iowa. I was afraid, terrified, of the hard reality of life. Every night I prayed that I would be back home with my family. There's no doubt in my mind that he heard my prayers. Within a six-month period, I was back home. My dad and I have a better relationship now than we've ever had. Which means the world to me, because I didn't want to have the relationship that him and my grandpa had. I have far more wisdom now than I did the day I left home. My parents have a better marriage, and the family is much closer than we were. Although, we went through such a horrible time in life. God turned it around, and made it into something so much more beautiful. And it started with the faith, hope, and love that we had in God. Don't let the trials of life bring you down, look at God, and remember that he is always there to guide you like a father to his son, or a mother to her daughter. He never lets go of you...you let go of him. So don't make the mistake I did...trust in God and you will make life so much more beautiful.

My Life (an overview)

It's amazing how time flies. Where does it go? Time is fast, but it's the simple things in life that you remember the most. I remember my little Minnie Mouse doll, and the purple paint-spotted stroller that went with it. I remember riding my bike as far and as fast as I could go every day....just to see if I could get a little bit further than the day before. I remeber wrestling with my older cousins...always trying to prove that I was tough even though I was a girl. I look back on all the times that my cousins and I sang for the first time together in front of our entire family. heh. I remember the tears they cried when we finished. The song was about not relying on everyone else to pray for you and everyone else to have faith that you will make it the next day...Granny's Angel-by Nicole Mullen. The song is amazing. I remember riding on the four-wheeler with my Papa(grandpa) out on his farm every summer. There was always something to do....Some new adventure to look forward to. I was never bored, and I felt free. I remember rock climbing for the first time...the rush of adrenaline was awesome! After that day I raced so many people so much older than me, and strived everyday to beat the next person to the top...even the kids her were so much taller and older than I was. I never gave up. I remember my first time fishing...i had so much fun. I remember every single day one of my siblings were born. I was so excited to have another one that I could help raise, and i was thrilled to be the one that they could look up to. I remember holding them in my arms until they fell asleep....and I did too. I remember the day my daddy came home from the army. I was so excited, i could barely move my feet to go run and meet him. I loved being in his arms. I loved it when my papa taught me how to dance. heh. He had me stand on his feet, while he moved so gracefully around the room..to country music. It's something I'll never forget. I rember my Grandpa Deeter taking me out for ice-cream one hot summer day...he told me to not tell anyone...that it was our secret. I giggled and ate my ice-cream with content. I'll never forget sitting outside in the middle of the night out at Papa's farm. He'd sit with me and we'd listen to the kyotes and talk in a whispered voice. It was so calming. I miss it so much. I miss horseback riding across fields, and finding a secret place to read. I remember starting bible study groups for just girls in elementry school. It was amazing. We always had fun things to share, and there was never a dull moment. I remember going roller blading at the Skate Castle almost every night. The hot spot for everyone to be. And the swimming...I love to swim. I love the water. I would've made it to the swimteam if i hadn't of moved. But, now i'm glad i did. Because I met Cassidy, my best friend, my sister, in a couple weeks afterwards. I remember my first kiss. In first grade was with a blonde headed boy with glasses named Skyler. He was adorable. So nerdy and cute. I couldn't help it. We made a pinky promise to always be best friends....I ended up moving that summer, and I haven't seen him since. I remember my good friend Bobby Joe. We always did everything together after school. Ride around the apartment buildings with our bikes until we could barely move our legs. haha. It never got old. I remember running around the apartment with Kaylee when we were little making up songs with mom and dad...and singing them until we couldn't keep our eyes open any longer. I remember going to the Salourville Bridge all the time with my family....Just to watch the water spill out into the river. I remember all the silly photos that me and cass took just for fun...that turned out amazing. There's so many things that I remember so well...I love looking back on those times....to remind me...that life is good. And I don't have to worry about what will happen. Because I know now, that everything happens for a reason.

Starting the Blog

I've decided, since I write all of the time, that I should start blogging too. I need a way to express myself...and so far this seems like a pretty good way to do it. :)